I Love Your Blog

hello...? ( i can hear my own voice echoing back at me) Obvious la bah this blog berhabuk...


With average of one post each month, i don't think my blog will survive. Why? because i feel that i am becoming lazier and lazier to write anything online.

*Yawn*

See? i even yawned just by thinking of what should i write about.

Nevermind, i should write about a few blog that i followed, as i've been thinking of it since last time. (my english is also getting worse....suck! future English teacher konon). Even though i didn't leave any comment most of the time, but i often read their posts first, then baru the other blogs.

First is the blog by the author 'Uncle Lee' at A Moonlight Rendezvous . Reading his blog is like reading his diary of life. You'll feel like you are there!! He is an amazing writer,and because of his interesting posts i will read each post that i ketinggalan (i go online once in a while nowadays). Thanks Uncle Lee for sharing your thought and experiences.

Second, Me.Love.Life by Chocolatte. Posts agak direct to the point and kadangkala berbunyi sinis. I love it!! Love the way she writes. Apa yang menariknya bagi saya, postnya ada ayat-ayat lawak tersendiri. Cuba-try-test pegi baca. I always smile and often caught myself tersengih-sengih membaca.Then, blog by Anne aka SimplySeoul at SimplySeoul. Ini adalah salah satu blog self-center (menurut pengakuan penulis sendiri) yang agak menarik untuk dibaca. Tidaklah terlalu self-centered...okay jak pun. Seronok!!!

Honestly, i need to read their blog to give me a boost to write. i usually got ideas in mind after reading their blogs but unfortunately, my fingers are too lazy to type. (an error occurred while saving- got this everytime i started to write and eventually when i tried to post it, it ended - up in the draft folder) As a proof, i have another blog called This is what we call life . Itu merupakan blog yang macam rumah usang menanti roboh. Satu blog pun susah nak mantain ni kan lagi dua kan?

Till then. A cramp in my back. Need to join my Zuan a few minutes before he wakes up.

Psst..psst.. : I don't mean the other blogs are not interesting to read. Of course you guys rock! that is why i follow your blog. So keep writing guys and i will keep reading . (Sorry to Uncle Lee, Chocolatte and SimplySeoul, I dunno how to insert the image of your blog in this post. Dia jadi kelam kabut ma..jadi tak cantik...)

XoXo

Nazwan As'ad

to my kesayangan Nazwan As'ad... happy birthday..cutest 3 years old kid in mummy's and daddy's heart...




Selalu mummy marah-marah....garang...but in the end, he still my number one...Love you sayang,tolong jangan nakal-nakal sangat..jangan buli mummy selalu..

He is autistic...but we love him very very much...and always.

Ya. We finally got the reviews result. My suspicion is confirmed. Zuan is diagnosed with autism and feature of ADHD... and how we reacted? My husband was a bit blur..my stepmom even worse..never heard of it. i've done some reading before, so i am not as blur as my husband...but still some sadness feeling creeping in my heart, he will never be as normal as other kid as his age.

He is almost 3 now,yet his gross and fine motor development is far behind from his peers. He is now attending intervention class twice a week and i hope he can improve from there. I really want him to have 5 days a week intervention class but we cannot afford it for the time being. It will cost us a 1K plus a month at Cita-cita (Intervention centre for autistic children).

I will need to discuss a life plan for Zuan with my husband.

Speaking of my husband, he is still 'stranded' in Kuching. I pray hard to God so that he would be transferred out back to KK. I need him! We need him!

And i have been absent since tuesday. I felt terrible skipping class but i don't have much choice. Zuan was not well, my stepmom has been hospitalized and ordered to continue bed-rest at home. So it was only 'I' left to take care of the family. What a life kan? still stuck here.. haha..

I haven't finish my driving lesson.. suppose to take the JPJ test but i am scared that i will screw it up. So? what to do..I will wait for my long semester break and will finish it, and get my driving license. Cross fingers. :)

To all my blogger readers, thanks for still reading..and for those blog that i am following, i still read your blog... i might just didn't put my marks there...

nite everyone..need to take a nap now that it is 5 minutes to 1 am in the morning and i have to get up at 4.30 later...need to cook Zuan food before go to school at 6 am.Hopefully Zuan will stay asleep and only wake up when i already gone...:P. kesian if he wakes up too early..

tata untuk sekarang.

Somehow, please be human..

I don't know what happen to the people's attitude nowadays.

Does it mean that their 'customer service' or 'public relation' skill has been upgraded now that you can be rude to people?

Maybe you still need to practice right?

I worked as a Human Resource and Customer Representative before and i know sometimes you might feel tired and angry when people like 'tak faham and asyik tanya benda-benda yang kita x tau' but then, still put a smile on your face and try to answer people reasonably.

"Kalau nda tau tu..pandai-pandai la ngarang ba..."

I am not angry. not at all... :) just giving myself a reminder that i will not be rude to other people.

I skipped my APK class today. My son grandma went for the annual skin review and i had to stay home with Zuan. Thank God i don't have to skip my tutorial at 2 just now. I managed to come. I realized that learning syntax challenge my grammar knowledge. Quoting Audee "...that is way i hate grammar". i think i need to open my grammar bible more often.

Zuan review for hearing finally done. As what we hoped, his hearing is okay. Next, he will undergo speech and behavioural review. Hope it will not take too long because i really want him to start intervention class really soon and i can get a letter from the doctor to get my husband transfer back in kk. How i miss our life together...uhuk uhuk!!

Bah. itu jak la.Sejuk tul library ni.

Blessed be everyone..

hi...my name is....

ngarang jak tajuk di atas..mau tulis something jak ba d blog..sian my fellow followers.....uhuhukkk...xda jak update dari saya nie...

tunggu saya on semester break ya... now masih struggle baca buku.....

see you soon...

Jujurlah padaku...

I don't know what is wrong with my eyes..but i think i have a serious problem in identifying people without looking at them closely..This morning, i thought i met my classmate on the way to the faculty. Seeing the person way of dressing, i was very confident that it was her. I almost waved at her when i realised i didn't recognise the friend that tag along. The girl must terperasan  i was starring at her as she turn her head towards me. I smiled sweetly at her. Mesti dia tertanya-tanya kan..

Then still smiling to myself, i settle down my things at the table outside the classroom when i caught a glimpse of her *again* ..this time i was almost so confident because she was wearing the usual creamy pink baju kurung she always wear. I was ready to wave at her when once again, its not her!!! Astagfirullah!! napa juga mata ni pagi-pagi buta? The distance between us is not more than 15 metres and her face is already blur in my eyes? patut mau cek sudah ni mata ni....buta sudah...

So again..there my smile goes..huahaha...its okay...senyum itu satu sedekah...
i thought i really saw her this time...walking with someone at the foyer near the computer lab. ni kali la..memang dia lai ni.... of course i was so confident, looking at the way she dress this time, baju blaus dan skirt putih..but then, its not her..again...so i keep my hand down and put a smile on...i know..she didn't notice me..not like the two girls before.

Finally, i saw her outside the classroom. This time, its really her. untuk tidak kempunan mau melambai Joan, saya lambai juga dia..hahahahaha

eh, apa kena mengena tajuk post sama story ni? nothing..just the song that keep singing in my head, i cannot get rid of it...

And i am suppose to finish my blog analysis thingy..one assignment from Mejar H. ( met him at 1Borneo last friday, and he was starring at me like he saw something ugly..erg....yalah..hari tu jalan dress macam mama mama...but then, its true..i am a mom what..:) hehehe..if he critisize about my dressing that friday in his next class i have one answer for him..: yes, i'm a mom..)
Instead, i update my blog..hahaha

to all my blog friends...i still read your blogs, i just didn't leave my 'bitemarks' ngeheee....so don't worry about once a month update...if i have extra extra time, i will update more..

p/s : i'm thinking to dedicate this blog to my son Zuan..ya..of course...he is too special for me..its no harm writing about something you love right? but still in thinking process...

nah.jam 11 sudah... off to next lesson.now.

..Assignments, Mejar H and Zuan?

Salam...puasa ka nda oo?

Sempena Bulan Ramadhan Bulan Baik ni...marilah kita sama - sama buat kebaikan...tambah - tambahkan amalan baik kita tu...ngumpat2 tu kurang -kurang kan... (even though today i feels like mau mengumpat jak)

 No la.. just a tidbit to make sure this blog still alive...my last post macam 7 tahun yang lalu lagi....sian juga follower ku yang mungkin tertanya -tanya hidup ka lagi blog ni ka tidak..

da dua kali puasa sejak bergelar student ni...and sejak tu la juga aku puasa sendiri.. huhu.. yalah... bapanya Zuan di Kuching...sedih tau...daddy..? bila la transfer...

Pelik? Mejar H? ahahaha.....
"look at you...dress like the cleaner...even the cleaner is look smarter than you...and you...look like a reload coupon seller..." and the phrase "showing off your b*&^%t" ngehee....padas jugala sikit....tapi kali dia memang gitu kan....
so lesson learned..please wear a decent and 'un-showing' clothing when attending his class.. :)

I feels like i haven't learned anything since mula sem ni...ntahla..engine ka yang nda pandai panas or memang rasa cam sem ni blur jak... lot of things bah happening around...sampai nda tau la mo cakap apa..assignment? banyak..tapi lum juga start buat....(ni mo buat la ni....)

And as for Zuan update...no comment...i was so frustrated with what had happened, i cannot even narrate anymore...thanks to the kind hearted kakak at HQE, she managed to calm my anger that day and i can re-schedule Zuan appointment..kepada lagi 3 bulan akan datang...ya..baiklah....
*sigh*
KALAU MACAM NI PA MACAMLA? MAKIN LAMA LA DAPAT RESULT..MAKIN LAMA LA ZUAN BOLEH ATTEND INTERVENTION CLASS!!!!!! (marah tahap dewa)

bah...itu jak la....jangan risau..saya masih baca blog kamurang kawan-kawan...tapi mungkin xdala footprint...yalah..lama nda online..ni pun pinjam stacey punya laptop..thanks staze...

p/s: nda lama lagi raya...dah shopping kamurang?

So sorry my love..

*sigh*
 i thought i was supposed to bring Zuan to the ENT specialist clinic today. His last appointment at Kuching GH. Turned out it was the wrong date!!! i supposed to bring him week ago..on the 2nd of July!!! How can i didn't check the date back then? i have a month to check bah! Instead i konon konon hold on to my wrong memory. i mistaken the date with the time. see, the appintment should be on the 2nd July, 9 am. and i stupidly remember 9th july, 9 am.just because me and hubby argue about the time the other day.

i feel very disappointed now. Why? because he almost done bah! Only his right ear that need to be checked. And ENT here give 15ml of sedative compared to KK ENT that just give 5ml..no wonder Zuan bangun balik...

then called KK ENT just now, hoping that i can get appointment for Zuan next week. Not available, he can only do the test on 26th august. I wrote it down, put it in my phone apps so that i will never wrong. Hm..tem posa lagi tu...ada cuti sem ka tu aa? ka bz kami mid term..mati la....have to check back  my schedule..

bah..busy ni main fairyland di facebook..hahaha...best....

see you..muahmuah!!

under construction...

BERSAWANG, ABUK 3 INCI...*sigh*

hi all...!!!! i'm fine, thank you...
what date is today?..wow..lamanya blog ini tidur....hibernasi mangkali....
nyway....i seem to lost my words of tought nowadays...why? dunno...maybe i became lazier to write as the days pass by..hm...

i think, quick update is fine...its been awhile i didn't blog hop...i miss all the updates from my blogger friends...

i'm enjoying my semester break now...and next month, i'll be in the third semester..5 semesters to go... hopefully i can pass tru...warkkk.....

quick update with nazwan: can say the word 'mama' already..but seem didn't know what is the meaning of it. if you feed him with food  he will say 'mamam' ..mama and mamam...the two words that he mastered...still babbling though...i say that it is his own way of communicating, eventhough i can never interpret the meaning...last week, went to see ENT to continue with his hearing test but this time, looks like the machine had problem and nazwan have to attend another appoinment next month. I am trying hard to teach Nazwan to talk, but yalah...kadang kadang dia buat dunno jak..*sigh*

trying to update this blog at least once a week but i failed...hahaha..apperently, after i bought the 'Charmed' series, i let myself indulged in it.?(betul ka tu ayat?) currently watching season 6...hehe...itu yang tidak main facebook, tidak buka blog...lagi teruk, i abandoned my SIMS family!!

and further more, my lappy seems to automaticly shut down!! punya la bah x syok...why arr? any suggestion? and solution?

bah..see you soon...
blog hop dulu

ASS-ignments, Nazwan, Hubby...and Adam Lambert?

hi everyone..penat saya sapu spidernet di blog saya ni...have to visit this 'sphere' 'coz its been a while tidak menjejakkan kaki here.. :)

what is new with me? not much....
haven't blog walking for a while...i missed all my blogger frens stories...

i still have 5 assignments to go...i don't know why this semester i tend to 'procascinate' (is my spelling right? )hm.... and believe me.. all those assignments are damn hard....and i should started it earlier..but then....i don't know why..*sigh*

Then my dear Nazwan development still bother me once in a while...yeah.. of course i love him whatever happen but, i still have the sad feeling in my heart...another *sigh* tomorrow will bring him to see paediatrician...to get second opinion...i am not into this but as my hubby insist...

And what about Adam Lambert?...heish...the song what do you want from me keep singing on my head!! i can't make it stop!! hantu punya Lambert!!!

bah, that's all for now...will update soon...and i'll blog walk again when my assignments done...but then..exam plak around the corner...hahah...then time cuti la...kan...hm..

Nazwan and Phonology

ya...
today went to see the Audiometrist. Unfortunately, Zuan was not very cooperative with the doctor. I think he pissed the Doctor off. (got that term ka?) So, Zuan was sedated, let him fall asleep for awhile before testing him again. Sadly, he woke up just after the left ear checked. sebelah lagi dia renung - renung dok tu dengan pandangan tajam. So have to come back again next month. Another appoinment. Luckily this time, it will be on the study week, so i don't have to 'absent' from class.

As for today, i managed to come to my Phonology midterm. 're-seat' midterm actually. Why? i scored worst on my first one. And this time? at least i don't do much bullshit in my paper..hehehe...though i cannot 'write the exact /right terms'  aku paham sorang sudah la...err..boleh ka camtu..?

bah, bapa saya tunggu di luar lebri sudah ni.nanti ngamuk pulak dia. see you guys in the next update.hopefully soon.......

p/s: hubby at semporna now, 2moro is my BIL wedding day...

blog walking...

it's been a while i didn't read others blog..hehehe...so just now, i blogwalk. so many story to read on. i didn't realise the time.

i'm really back now..i do...

hallo world......hi all....happy new year 2010, happy january, happy february...(the month of love)

i still miss my old blogs but nevermind.. life must go on. i have a new one now. and i hope i will be loyal blogging..

so how's my life?
well, last time i was buzy with my tons of assignmnet  assignments, been through with my first final exam in UMS, nice GPA for starter, started my 2nd sem, now struggling with my loads of assignments, hubby still in Kuching, dunno when he will be back in KK, Wan is okay at home, regardless of his slow proggression of development ( i love him, no matter what), on my way to obtain my first driving license (so i can have and drive my hubby's Honda Civic hehe) and i haven't receive my PTPTipu is not yet.

that's all for my first official post. to all my blogger friends, i'll find you all guys!!!

new life...new identity

i officially for the second time welcoma myself again to this blog world....