My ZuaN Dearest

i stumbled upon an  Autism site and suddenly it knocked my head. i did some reading and checklist. Feels like i cannot accept it at first,but now i admit that i must redha and tawakal for everything that happen. God has planned it this way.But i'll do everything for my Zuan. and i hope that this is just my over reacting feeling..terlebih - lebih.

Autism Checklist



Difficulty in mixing with other children  = he will sometime look uncomfortable and isolate himself - check
Insistence on sameness; resists changes in routine = i'm not aware of this
Inappropriate laughing and giggling = sometimes, i misunderstood it as he being happy - check

No real fear of dangers = he don't even know the dangers!! - check

Little or no eye contact = hard to have eye contact - check

Sustained odd play = i'm not aware of this
Apparent insensitivity to pain = no wonder everytime went to the clinic for his injection, he barely cry..

Echolalia ( repeating words or phrases in place of normal language ) = i'm not aware of this but he stop babling suddenly few weeks back...

Prefers to be alone; aloof manner = i'm not aware of this

May not want cuddling or act cuddly = obviously.can only hug him when he want to
Spins objects = his favorite.. :(

Not responsive to verbal cues; acts as deaf = it is not easy to call him by his name...need to try hard..
Inappropriate attachment to objects = plastic tumbler/cup, cans
Difficulty in expressing needs; uses gestures or pointing instead of words = yup..totally
Noticeable physical overactivity or extreme underactivity = sometimes he runs all the time..
Tantrums - displays extreme distress for no apparent reason =not yet showing any that cannot be controlled
Unresponsive to normal teaching methods = *sigh*
Uneven gross/fine motor skills. (May not want to kick ball but can stack blocks.) = throwing things around but don't want to put it back in place.

This thursday, i have an appointment with the child specialist. I hope i can have better advice. I know, this is almost hard for me to accept but i know, he is my precious.. and i will love him no matter what.. i am not suppose to grieve right? People might not understand my Zuan and i'll make sure no one bully him.

" Dear God, please help me to get through this situation.Help me to be calm and patient with him and let me love him more and more everyday. Amin"

love and the tiger

"I remember what you wore on the first day

You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing




'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one


I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
 I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, we're leaving


And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one


Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey


Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking


Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one
Two is better than one "

suddenly want to post this lyrics...the mood for valentine's day..

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE.LETS THE LOVE FILL THE AIR...SPREAD THE LOVE..

This year, i will not be able to celebrate it with my hubby. Yeah...feel a bit sad of it. But nevermind, since he will be on holiday next month and will be bcak back to kk, then will will celebrate belatedly..(is the word belatedly exist?) i will buy him perfume as a valentine's gift (any suggestion?) and i myself ask for a Valentino Rudy's handbag..hehehe...worth it what..hahaha...

my semester break started unofficially today, since i don't have any class 'nymore. But there are too much ASS-ignments, afraid that i couldn't finish it on time.you see, i still sneak time to fill in my blog while doing my article review and 'facebooking' some more? OMG!! buat - buat la kerja bah...

to my frens that celebrating CNY, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, MAY THE TIGER UNLEASH IN YOU ALL...ROAARR!! don't drink and drive, safe journey and have fun!!

i'm really back now..i do...

hallo world......hi all....happy new year 2010, happy january, happy february...(the month of love)

i still miss my old blogs but nevermind.. life must go on. i have a new one now. and i hope i will be loyal blogging..

so how's my life?
well, last time i was buzy with my tons of assignmnet  assignments, been through with my first final exam in UMS, nice GPA for starter, started my 2nd sem, now struggling with my loads of assignments, hubby still in Kuching, dunno when he will be back in KK, Wan is okay at home, regardless of his slow proggression of development ( i love him, no matter what), on my way to obtain my first driving license (so i can have and drive my hubby's Honda Civic hehe) and i haven't receive my PTPTipu is not yet.

that's all for my first official post. to all my blogger friends, i'll find you all guys!!!